of knots & complications

you know why curses and swear words were invented for,

when you find that no other possible phrases or words in your brain dictionary can aptly describe your feelings at the moment.

it's been a while since i've meeting up more friends. 

and you see them, very much the same on the outside.

but slowly they experience little changes in life inside of their bloodstreams and hearts.

had a nice talk with a newfound friend, who is like a lovely younger sister.

J was talking about random stuff, best friends who became not-so-best-friends, boy stuff, work stuff and how screwed up some people are. 

i can't even imagine how it's like to work in the shop anymore, since i left weeks ago.
it's fortunate that she's going back for only a day a week.

it's difficult to find someone who just wants to be a friend. 

with no other intention in mind. 

i guess sometimes what you want in a friend isn't exactly what you get when you get to know someone better.

even if it's an amazing friend you've come to known, 

there's no guarantee that it's going to be like that forever ever and ever. like, till the sea runs dry.

our insides get tied up like that you know. when we go round and round about a certain idea. it sucks knowing you can't snip it but you can't figure out the way to untangle the knot.

oh wells. sometimes it stays like that and life goes on.
just keep yourself together and breathe, and you'll survive and perhaps bump into the solution someday.

optimistic i know.
but it's the better way to live, yeah?