choices & paths

i've tried my very best but it ended all too soon. yup the impact was hard to take and i might need some time recovering. Y advanced a step further but news, bad news about the interview came to my ears and she said  the situation wasn't optimistic. it's another round of waiting again. we've still got another shot at another application and results aren't gonna be out until the end of this month.

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I thought a real long hard period of time when i received the rejection email.

I didn't know what was missing in my submission. Alright, Y and I approached it differently. but she got a headache after writing that piece, most probably because it wasn't her style of expressing ideas.

Well i did it my way. and yoohoos the panel didn't take a fancy to it. i just thought that they could accept the genuine me. oh well, maybe everyone likes to play it safe. so when am i going to even get a chance to perform?

is there really a need to throw away who i really am to be recognised?
why would you need me if anyone, or should i say no particular someone is what you're looking for?
why does this world like replicas?

and boy i can't blend in for goodness sake, it's like some chronic obsession i'm born with!
i know i sound like i have an identity crisis at this moment, but holy cow of lord (where did this even come from?!), how am i going to get anywhere if no one gives me a chance?

i seek different choices along my path but i need someone to answer my knocks on the door. i knock differently but why are you frightful before you even get the chance to see me?

i am tired. so tired that doors are shutting down on me everywhere and i can't see where else i can go now.

it's still sad everytime. after trying so hard but i still don't get anywhere. and people who don't even give 10% of my efforts just become richer and happier.

it doesn't help when you don't have understanding parents who you can totally trust.

sometimes i really feel myself breaking apart from the inside out and my heart feels like an epic earthquake which will raze me down into a wrecked land.

i have been hopefully waiting for something good to happen on me but i have no idea how long i can persist. i mean, i will keep trying but it's agonizing and heartbreaking.

till then.

Review: St.Ives Energising Citrus Body Wash

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Well well, this is surely a loveable product!

St.Ives Energising Citrus Body Wash has a gel-like consistency, which is transparent with a green tint. Smells great and refreshing, just like its name! the citrus smell isn't overpowering or cheap or fake. You know some merchandise which boasts citrus scents actually smells like mama lemon dishwashing liquid or cheap toilet fragrance right?

Not this one though.

Despite the gel texture, it actually lathers very well and produces small bubbles. it does remove grit and oil away from the skin and leaves your skin feeling refreshed and clean. and that feeling will stay for quite sometime.

On a side note, my mom told me this body wash is niceeeee. we share the bathroom so she has access to it as well. oh wells, just saying. haha.

Gotta love this baby.

i will check out their other body washes as well, till then!

Review: i love strawberries & milkshake

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the back view of this scrub.

so what about this body scrub?
Let's start from the obvious. The smell is sweet, like a strawberry milkshake but maybe more on the artificial side. Like those food with strawberry sauce/syrup. But it isn't annoying. the pleasantness does dissipates over time as you work this scrub all over your body in the shower.

the pinky content has little specks of brown inside. i presume it's the almond shells after poring through the ingredient list. it lathers a little as you massage it but the thing is, after rinsing it off and coming out of the bathroom, my skin feels dry and i'm like a cell heading to crenation. it's not a great feeling, i had to use lotion to put off that effect.

i have oily skin on both my skin and body. so if this scrub makes my skin dry, it really dries skin. don't ever buy this tube, dry-skin-folks. i repeat, EVER.

You'll regret.

in the meantime, i shall use it on and off and slather my body lotion all over me as soon as i emerge from the shower.

St. Ives Ambassador

It's the greatest pleasure to be part of the first ever batch of St. Ives Singapore ambassadors!

After accepting numerous entries from girls talking about their most beloved St.Ives product on Facebook, they selected 15 people to be part of their party this 2013. and it's my honour to be part of this group.

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So St.Ives had their first event for the ambassadors on the Saturday and Sunday that just left us, it was a Yogafly lesson. and oh boy, did i enjoy it!

Maybe you've heard of yoga but this is something that sets it apart from your floormat-yoga lessons. There were cloth sashes hung from the top of the studio and our lesson will require us to use the cloth and incorporate it into the yoga regime.

Because of the cloth pieces, we were able to do seemingly challenging poses that aren't exactly that difficult. We went upside down, round and round and flew to and fro.

it's great exercise if you want to tone your muscles! trust me when i say this because i'm still aching at my armpits, tummy and back 2 days after the lesson. for girls who want a rocking hotbod to sizzle eyes at the pool, this yogafly lesson would be awesome. for proof, check out my instructor, Saniya's taut and beautiful body! WOOHOO.

In tandem with St.Ives's goal to strive for a natural, healthy body, they decided that a yoga lesson with a twist will be most apt for the ambassadors. So we get to look AND feel healthy.

It was a great deal of fun. and sweat, which was unexpected, at least on my part, that is.
But come on, the perspiration didn't drown the laughter and fun during the session. Check out what we did!

I'm amazed when Saniya demonstrated this posture to the class. Even i can see i'm happy and excited from this picture haha. and then we got to give it a go!

it was major blood flow in the head, in a good way. it was like reliving your childhood, remember how we used to bend under and look at the world through our legs upside down? major nostalgia.

After everything, the St.Ives people had to be so nice that they provided light refreshments from TCC for us. sandwiches and cute little cupcakes.

Had to play around with the balloons. i had nothing to do anyway. 

hello Jasmine! found a same age friend who lived in the same area as me :D so happieeeee

The girls on the same session!

hip hip hurrayyyyy~~~~

Oh and credits to St.Ives Singapore for some of the pictures!
Thank you for snapping away while i'm battling with the sash and my (lack of) balance and coordination!

if you're curious about Yogafly lessons, do head over to check it out.

it's a lovely place because you get to see pretty horses strolling outside the glass windows as you flip and twist and fly in the classroom.


100 Turf Club Road #01-02L/X
Singapore 287992

Tel: +65 64651559

Email: enquiry@upsidemotion.com
Facebook: facebook.com/UpsideMotion

This is what we got in the goodie bag.

I'm gonna try them out and do some reviews on them real soon (:

So keep looking and follow St. Ives Singapore on facebook!
then you'll get freshest news about their new products, promotions, events and also about us, the ambassadors (:

Take care for now, toodles!